*disclaimer: the following is a lie. a short story. an untruth.
Bad News by Kanye West [808\'s & Heartbreak]
A heavy heart makes every breath a feat of Olympian proportions. Nervous and tense, his muscles have decided consistent operation is no longer a priority. His mind wanders in cold, barren fields covered in snow as mortars blast holes into the ground surrounding me, until he stands on the porous face of a dead earth, alone and covered in mud. His gut wrenches. His throat closes. It’s hard to see past his out stretched arms, the haze of a million deaths hide the destruction his words have brought to this once beautiful landscape.
He broke her heart. He brought down her walls. He slipped past her guard. She opened herself to him. Trusted him. And he told her she was beautiful. He told her she was special. He told her she deserved happiness, and that settling for anything less would be a sin. She told him she loved him. He responded with something similar. Their love was not the same. She loved with all her heart. He could not.
When two people decide to love, their lives join and walk together on a common path. Sometimes, it’s easy to walk together: you both have common destinations, or simply like taking the same routes. It’s hard to say when he realized they weren’t headed down the same path, but once he knew, he could only think of the pain that would come to them both when they would part ways. So he made a move- a dumb move. A move that, although made in good intentions, would only amplify her pain.
He told her what was still true. He reminder her of her value. “You’re beautiful. You’re strong. Don’t ever let anyone tell you any different. I’ll keep telling you until you believe it.” And he didn’t lie. But he didn’t tell her the truth either. The truth was that he was not the man she thought he was. He had changed.
She knows now. She knows he love another. And now the words he had hoped would bring light to her once dark world, now bring pain and anguish; a reminder that she felt comfortable in the arms of the man who betrayed her.
Heartbreak is not a new condition for him. But today, it takes on a whole new feeling. It squeezes in around him and sucks the life from his cheeks. It weighs heavy on his heart and takes its toll on his expression. This is the other side of the coin. This is what Heartbreak feels like for the villain.